; tHe fallenn [[ -

Fallen: yU ting
Time: 15 yrs
Location: zh0nghua sec0ndary
Status: Alone-Running Out of Time and Still Holding On Tightly To Her

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September 2004 October 2004

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dreamx . reality

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``hEaRt fElt

I dunno how long i can stay standing on my own. I need sum1 4 support. That person iz u. I noe evrything iz too impossible alreadi but i'll wait...
[[No Matter How Long I Have 2 Wait And Even Though I Know That There Is Nothing At The Other End, At Least I Know EveryThing Is And Was Worth It...]]
We had a beautiful beginning of da +fairytale+... i was reluctant 2 step into de story at first though i was interested in wad it had held 4 me in suspense. But... eventually u were de 1 hu gave me de courage 2 assume dat role of de author of dat beri fairytale we had once believed in. I took da first step n fell right deep into it... Yet nw u called de shots n i am left juz like dat after fallin' n not being saved...
Wad can possibly be harsher than dis cruel reality... However so, at least i knew rite at da start, since i followed my heart, it aso meant dat i decided 2 follow wadeva miracles u wld create 4 us... I have no regrets...
[[No Matter How Harsh Dis Reality Shall Be, I Shall Not Run Away From It...]]
[[I Noe Wad My Heart Says N I Shall Follow It 2 Whereva It Brings me 2...]]
............ It Told Me 2 Stay* At Whr De Story Stopped ...........

Now, I am so lost N confuse...
Pls, be my Guardian Light...
Lead me out of this dreaded darkness...

wAiTiNg n wAiTiNg 4 as long as u live in my soul :'(
Lovin' U...


``tHe fAcT

You moulded me for who i am.
I tried 2 become ya guardian angel
While U were also the source which provided me with
Endless Energy and Self Confidence

You made me believe in myself and
Whatever i do... Yet
Little did i expect dat eventually
U became de reason why
Me, Everything bout' me and my Confidence

++[wAs sHatteReD]++

*pls... help me piece back da pieces of da puzzle n not leave it lying arnd... Its in a mess now :'(
I Love You...
I guess i will nv get 2 ~feel~ de meaning behind "The Greatest Thing You'll Eva Learn... Is Just 2 Love... And Be Loved In Return"
|||anymore|||

Sunday, October 03, 2004


In de past, everytime when i am doing something challenging, i wld alwaes remind myself that it is for your sake. Though it is foolish and it shld hab been 4 my own, but 2 me, de sake of others is alwaes more impt than self. So, i regarded u more impt than i regarded myself. Now dat u r gone, i am almost goaless in life. There is no apparent reason 4 strive hard and push myself further... Still trudging on in life aimlessly looking for nothing...

It has finally come 2 1 perfect week since i started this blog... From now on, i will not post anymore in this blog as it shall and will be locked and kept as part of my painful memory...
~Nothing can undone what is being done~ Damage is done and I'm left lying alone.
~All alone 2 pick de pieces up~

*I will be starting a new blog http://chaozer.blogspot.com


yU tInG Fell At
1:14 PM
**u mAy n0rt sEnSe iT, dEy mAy nOt sEe iT,**
bUrT iM sUrE u mUz hAb fElt iT...
~dE sEeD oF mY t0rMeNt~
**-+[fAlLeN_aN93L]+-**
Friday, October 01, 2004


I dunno wad de future holds 4 me...
I dunno wad will become of me...
But de pain ish de onli thing i do noe clearly now
Exams cumin... it will mean nt being able 2 see * 4 almost 2 whole wks...
Haiz... I do noe dat i do not hab de rite...
I do noe dat i am not in de rite 2 do so...
Yet my raging soul pushes me on, tellin me wad 2 do.
Wad else can i possibly do but juz stay lyin trapped in dat vortex of agony which i fell into...

:'( waitin' a.G.o.N.y


yU tInG Fell At
2:54 PM
**u mAy n0rt sEnSe iT, dEy mAy nOt sEe iT,**
bUrT iM sUrE u mUz hAb fElt iT...
~dE sEeD oF mY t0rMeNt~
**-+[fAlLeN_aN93L]+-**
Thursday, September 30, 2004


If only i was given a chance 2 undo things dat were done,
If onli u wld face everything wif me,
If onli u gave me a chance 2 face de problem 2gether instead of lookin' at running awae frm it as de onli wae out,
De ending of de story cld hab been different...

If I'm still given a choice again, i wld still choose 2 take upon dis journey wif u right at the start even if i noe dat dere may b problems ahead. At least, facing it seriously iz betta than running awae frm it...

If onli i can turn back the hands of time... I wld nv regret choosin' 2 b wif u... N everything 2dae cld hab been prevented...

**i aM nOt wAd i sEeM 2 bE** ++[[sHaTtErEd]]++


yU tInG Fell At
4:25 PM
**u mAy n0rt sEnSe iT, dEy mAy nOt sEe iT,**
bUrT iM sUrE u mUz hAb fElt iT...
~dE sEeD oF mY t0rMeNt~
**-+[fAlLeN_aN93L]+-**
Wednesday, September 29, 2004


Well exam cumin le... feelin da pressure yet de feelin iz juz so numb... dunno y... well i guess im alreadi numb 2 everything arnd me le... nth can possibly hit me worse of than dat*... haiz... everydae pining, waiting, hoping... Wad a fool i am... yet i still wait... hopin miracle 2 happen.... Aniwae, sumtimes itz juz so saddening dat i simply tell myself... if onli dis was all a joke... though too harsh a joke... lest... i wldnt b in such a plight... Wad can i possibly do? Wads done cannot be undone... Reality iz juz so cruel... If onli i can escape into another realm... tHe ReAlm wHeRe fAnTaSy n dReAmS cUm tRuE... haiz...

Went up so high yet could not escape the reality of falling wif a thud...
*It Does Hurt A LOT Even If U Dun Feel It* sobz* :'-(


yU tInG Fell At
6:49 PM
**u mAy n0rt sEnSe iT, dEy mAy nOt sEe iT,**
bUrT iM sUrE u mUz hAb fElt iT...
~dE sEeD oF mY t0rMeNt~
**-+[fAlLeN_aN93L]+-**
Tuesday, September 28, 2004


Nowadaes, cumin 2 sch a lot later may probably mean more tym 4 slp however, its merely a way of 4getin bout de earli morns evry dae b4 assembly in class... Late=Nth 2 wait 4, Nth 2 earn 2 look 4, Nth 2 tink of... haiz... eng periods r both a happiness n misery... being able 2 see = being able 2 pierce self heart wif a pin each tym... recesses r a relieve 4 nw, however i dunno wad can it possibly mean 2 me in future... :'-( .... Seen * after sch... however normal as it may seem, de sense of avoidance frm * and both de misery is strong yet i still eventually said hi... how ironic... saein hi* while feelin hurt simply hurts a lot more... De feelin * gifs isnt dere animore... wad more can i possibly hope 4 whn things ended up dis wae... Well, itz still betta than nth... haiz feels so sucky being stuck in between 2 moods...

Seein hurtz, but missin hurtz more... :'-(


yU tInG Fell At
6:35 PM
**u mAy n0rt sEnSe iT, dEy mAy nOt sEe iT,**
bUrT iM sUrE u mUz hAb fElt iT...
~dE sEeD oF mY t0rMeNt~
**-+[fAlLeN_aN93L]+-**
Monday, September 27, 2004


~when will the cycle of torment eva end?~
~lookin hurts, missin hurts, fearin hurts~
~nothing seem 2 be able 2 unbreak the broken~
~everymorn, 7.40am hurts without fail~
~nothing seem 2 help~
~nothing left 2 hold on 2~
~what is left may not actually be left~
~If theres nothing missing in my life Then why do these tears come out at night?~
~And everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings I feel so small I guess I need you babyAnd everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, you're haunting meI guess I need you baby~


~My Soul Will Never Be Complete Again Without U~
~Wounds Will Heal In Time But Scars R Left 4eva~
~U Will Never Realise The Reality Of Pain Till U Torture Urself Till U Realise It~

*As painful as it may seem however, yet clearly i do noe dat it is all w0r+h i+***
*Loving u 4eva :'-(


yU tInG Fell At
10:00 PM
ty ting xuan sia 4 ur finishin touch up ;) nice sia... Yawn* so tired aft whole dae of creatin dis blog... but kinda worth it... lolz Well, though i wasted a lot of tym last nite creatin dis blog and eventually having lack of tym 4 revision 4 my exams, at least i didnt fare badly 4 my exams hehz... hengz sia... Everything else seem so normal 2dae... but its juz too normal 2 be true haiz... didnt see * aniwae hopefully i dun hafta retake ani examinations... Well, hope dat she does well too... kk aniwae.... dis shall b my first proper post bahz... >post of misery n sadness< dotz*


yU tInG Fell At
8:04 PM
Phewz... after so long... Finally it is completed ! ;) Thanx 4 visiting by the way and I would like to Thank Rachel Tang 2e6 for all the hard work in editing my little errors here n dere lolz ;) and ppl like Nura and Vosh... Thanx a LOT ! Well, after all these hard work, i guess soon it will be time to get down n serious


yU tInG Fell At
5:17 PM
**u mAy n0rt sEnSe iT, dEy mAy nOt sEe iT,**
bUrT iM sUrE u mUz hAb fElt iT...
~dE sEeD oF mY t0rMeNt~
**-+[fAlLeN_aN93L]+-**
Sunday, September 26, 2004


Welcome ;)


yU tInG Fell At
5:07 AM
**u mAy n0rt sEnSe iT, dEy mAy nOt sEe iT,**
bUrT iM sUrE u mUz hAb fElt iT...
~dE sEeD oF mY t0rMeNt~
**-+[fAlLeN_aN93L]+-**



x * lyrics * x



So much for my happy ending oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Oh oh, oh oh, oh...

Let's talk this over It's not like we're dead Was it something I did? Was it something You said? Don't leave me hanging In a city so dead Held up so high On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be

CHORUS

You were everything, everything that I wanted We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away All this time you were pretending So much for my happy ending oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends I know what they say They tell you I'm difficult But so are they But they don't know me Do they even know you? All the things you hide from me All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there Thanks for acting like you cared And making me feel like I was the only one It's nice to know we had it all Thanks for watching as I fall And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh, oh...

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So much for my happy ending oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Oh oh, oh oh, oh...

Let's talk this over It's not like we're dead Was it something I did? Was it something You said? Don't leave me hanging In a city so dead Held up so high On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be

CHORUS

You were everything, everything that I wanted We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away All this time you were pretending So much for my happy ending oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends I know what they say They tell you I'm difficult But so are they But they don't know me Do they even know you? All the things you hide from me All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there Thanks for acting like you cared And making me feel like I was the only one It's nice to know we had it all Thanks for watching as I fall And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh, oh...

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So much for my happy ending oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Oh oh, oh oh, oh...

Let's talk this over It's not like we're dead Was it something I did? Was it something You said? Don't leave me hanging In a city so dead Held up so high On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be

CHORUS

You were everything, everything that I wanted We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away All this time you were pretending So much for my happy ending oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends I know what they say They tell you I'm difficult But so are they But they don't know me Do they even know you? All the things you hide from me All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there Thanks for acting like you cared And making me feel like I was the only one It's nice to know we had it all Thanks for watching as I fall And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh, oh...

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